I feel so lonely and trapped my heart hurts with lonelyness?

DOES ANYONE FEEL OR HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM AS ME ; i am in my early 30s and male and live with my parents that have been married for nearly 48 years now ( i have not had a girlfirend for nearly 10 years and i get very lonely) the thing is my mother is very ill and cant walk and has heart and breathing trouble and my dad as manic depression and bipolar all in one he has had it for nearly 34 years now this illness and he has a injection in his butt once a week and has to take lots of tablets called lythiem and largatal and other types of stuff i cant remeber there names, as a result i do loads around the house as my dad cant do owt for himself (my mums always looked after him but now my mum has become ill about 6 years ago she couldnt do owt so i took over the chores (it makes my life misrable it really does i cry my self to sleep most nights and the only release i have is to listen to music vids on youtube to get my mind away from my bad life) he gets very angry alot at my mother for no reason at all and shouts at her she obvously feels scared because of this and i always step in to calm it down i even threatened him once with violence ( which i regreted after) its as though hes a bully to just her and it does my nut in he also says i never do owt haha yes i do everything in the house ( this is his illness you see he doesnt understand what he is saying) my mums life is not worth living to be honest her life is **** and so his mine) i want to meet a girl and settle down but how the hell could i and can i ) i am a decent looking guy 6ft 2inch tall blue eyes so i can get a girl hehe but who would want me not anyone right.....i met a girl last year but i couldnt bring her to my house through shame and embarrassment that i lived at parents house plus other stuff we had to split up.....i meet woman but i know i cant get to close to the point there no anything about me so obvously i am very lonely person and spend most my days and weekends on my own well in this house but still feels like i am alone ( i listen to constant arguing and it makes me feel like i am going mad sometimes...i have no job because i am a carer for my parents and couldnt get a job even if i wanted to ( i buy and sell online to raise extra cash in spare time) i cant even go away for the weekend because i worry that my mum will be misraBLE on her own with my dad just him and her besides there wouldnt beable to have a meal or owt without me so i cant go out for to long>......i feel so fed up with life right now but i just cant be bothered being depressed (bet that sounds silly) CANT BE BOTHERED BEING DEPRESSED) the thing is i fight depression and i will not give in to the feeling of depression ( i watch movies to take the pain away...............i sit out side the door most dark nights when its a clear sky to look at the stars ( i see a bright star and i wish upon it) i wish upon that star that i could be happy (true happiness) not bothered about money or winning the lottery because that wouldnt change my situation at all well maybe id beable to afford to get pro carers in to look after my mother and father...if my dad didnt have this illness he could look aftyer my mother and visa versa but there both ill...........i have dreams and ambition and lots of them (i want my own bussiness in antiques and would like to have a nice country home or little cottage home with a nice wife and my own children running around and waking us up in the morning and taking them on days out to the theme parks at weekends yes id love my own family and often fantasies about what it would be like and this makes the pain i feel now bearable.........i am such a happy person normally with zest for life but not anymore i just feel so so so lonely and a feeling of loss inside my bleeding heart and a emptyness in my soul........my life is on hold right now its so frustrating but i love my parents so much and i cant and refuse to just say i am going to leave them on there own ( i have two sisters by the way that are married and there make the odd meal to help out now and then but there have got there own families i guess) my mums crys alot about things and the pain she is in....her body is in so much pain plus she has the added pressure of my dad being the way he is....its abit like living a nightmare and as been quite like this since the day i was born.....i like to right songs and this gives me release and go on my facebook site ( i have 87 friends lol and not one of them knows how my life is so i guess there dont know me at all do there ( i am to embarrassed to say how my life is thats why there dont know) ......ive not been huged for 10 years or told that i am loved as in someone saying i love you.......ive never been in love because ive never had chance to be with a woman for 10 years now...ive had one girlfriend in my life when i was 17 till 18 was together a year i am now 32 years old...is there any females in the same situation as me or can anyone help